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I don’t know what’s happening to me… I feel like kinda fed-up, but I don’t know why I am… feel like life is just so boring… everyday repeating the same things…

and I hate school… really boring… don’t know what the teacher talking about… and some more I don’t know why we have to act like primary school children… COPY NOTES FROM THE WHITE BOARD… which the writing is freaking small…

teacher just talk talk talk and talk there, and I feel like I’m lazy to talk talk talk like what they do… homework is another irritating stuff… don’t feel like doing once I open the book… great man… I even feel lazy to skip classes

Anyway, stop talking about this… my main purpose here is to wish someone happy birthday…

So, happy birthday!! Shine like how you always be ^^. Just be who you are and ignore the jokers huh??

dissapointment

Everyone change in life. And I admit, I change damn lot. From good to bad. It seems to be so difficult to continue to talk to when someone had told you “it is hard to talk to you”.

The thing, I mention JUST ONCE... and when she’s the one who keep on mentioning, just seems like came out from my mouth. “You are sensitive” I wonder who is the one who mention about that?? Me?? Fine.

Yesterday, after the birthday celebration, I just tell my sis happily “he put the toufu in my plate!! Haha ^^”

Maybe I’m kinda slow-mo to mention about this at here, cause seriously, I just read that post.

So my friend, try not to talk that much since it is hard for us to communicate... That’s the only way, huh?? And yeah… please “wow” and amaze at me for seeing someone that's almost a close friend to you change out of your imagination.

people say we tend to grow stronger after every obstacles. True enough but the question is, not everyone is STRONG enough to overcome the hurdles in life to become stronger.

birth, age, illness and death

Birth, age, illness and death. Do you ever think about when would you like to die at? 50 years old, 60 years old?? Cause all of us may face different kind of diseases when we’re getting older, and I don’t think it is something that we can overcome or withstand it easily.

When people beside you are ill or sick, what you should you do? I feel terrible… watching their face, the way they gaps for air, the way they suffer.

I’ll think: what for suffer for such a long period since they are going to die soon??

I know it is cruel to think in such way. It is evil.

Of cause sometimes, we prefer to suffer for a little while. We are hopping for miracles, miracles that can save our life again. But do we worth to suffer just for the 0.1% to survive?

I have to say here, the answer is yes. Bible state that we should never give up our life easily.

So pray hard for everyone beside you, the one you care about, the one you love, your parents, your brother and sister, your friends…

Please stay healthy.

overthrow

Did you guys ever watch a movie- vanilla sky by tom cruise? It talks something about tom cruise involved in an accident and he have to wear a mask for the rest of his life.

When he take off the mask, I was just like “oh my god!!” I’m very disappointed to saw my idol be like that, the so called handsome guy to be such disgusting. Yeah, he had ‘overthrow’ what he should be.

I don’t know… I just feel weird if someone ‘overthrow’ something no matter it is good or bad. Just like going for plastic surgery. It is the same explanation. Of cause if you think you’ll LIKE to be like that, it is ok for me. No comment…

This is a short post, purposely write for someone. Don’t change yourself because OTHERS like that. Be who you are ^^. Unless you wanna tell me that YOU LIKE TO BE IN THAT WAY, then I’ll tell you sorry for being so busybody. Seriously, I like the way you keep yourself quite, but laugh loudly when you’re happy with the others, the way you smile when you’re taking photo with your dearest sister.

So… if you are reading this, know that WE like ‘you’ and not someone you ACT AS ^^

all gays are handsome

I don’t know where I heard about this, but because of I have nothing to update here, so I decided to talk about something everyone interested in… lol ^^

Of cause it is not good to mention here “XXX is a gay” or what… but flash back, don’t you think all the gays are actually perfect guy, with perfect face and perfect personality? Ok… I doesn’t mean that ONLY gay is perfect, normal guys may be perfect too… you know, I do not hope to receive complains from your mother like “my boy decided to be a gay because of you!!”

Seriously, breathe out all the gas, leave out all the rest is a healthy blog ^^ TM, which means Trust Me XD

Well, adults will tell us or comfort us with “ai-ya… never mind la… not beautiful also never mind one~ the most important is your characteristic ma~~~” I did not say that I do not agree with the statement above, but actually all of us know that we love beautiful things. Ok ok, maybe you’re not, so I’ll just take myself as an example.

I love beautiful things. I love sexy guys and hot girls. And I love to hunt for hot chicks while walking on the road. Yeah… I know I’m weird, I’m kinda ‘lesbian’ but girls, chill, I promise I won’t do anything lol ^^

Besides that, jin always told us “everyone has their own beauty” I’m totally agree with that, but some people, their beauty is being spotted by everyone on earth, some no. just like Megan fox. She’s sexy and hot, this is agree by every of us. At the same time, another girl who looks like Megan fox, some will say she’s pretty but some will say no.

Here comes something I experience myself. There’s a girl, my friend fall in love with her, and told us… “You see the XXX, she’s damn pretty la!!” then the others will say “ya lo! Ya lo!” actually that girl is not-so-pretty, she’s just 1/10 of megan fox’s hotness, 1/20 of Megan fox’s sexiness, but when someone say she’s hot… tell you, she WILL be hot then.

Look like I’m out of topic. Haha ^^ Anyway, I just wanna mention here, pay attention to the gays… I mean REAL GAYS, not jermin and jiunhow that type of FAKE GAYS. Lol ^^ they are hot, and I respect them ^^

Just celebrate che haou’s birthday at wings café… the food is not so nice, but we have great moment there…

He’s my best friend since standard 4, and he is a really good guy ^^ everyone love him… I like to talk to him too ^^

Before I forget, happy birthday to my sis and jiun how too ^^ will go to his house and give him a surprise later… maybe I’ll post something about it…

Hoho^^ good news here, tomorrow is holiday!! Awwww!! And sorry, jie jie, you’re study in PJ, no holiday for you * evil smile* ngeh ngeh ngeh ^^

I don’t know why, but seems like I’m kinda “empty” these days… since when I never cry because I’m sad? Since when I never laugh because I’m really happy? I feel like my emotion doesn’t change in great gradient as before… which makes me feel kinda “empty”.

There’s something I want, yet I’m not dare to speak it out… yeah, kecut I know… but just feel like it is not a good thing to express those childish feeling to anyone… god!! I think I’m turning emo and I think I should shake hand with the emo king, kar quinn huh?? Nah~~ just joking, he’s not as emo as what you think…

Or in the other word, I have no idea how to express what I want, I know what is the thing I want, I know where is it about, but I’m not sure about which particular thing is it… ok, I know it is complicated, I don’t even know what I’m writing here…

But it is about how I feel now… stupid thing, I know… I’m always stupid, don’t forget that… I AM STUPID

Humm…. I think I should talk something about exam right?? I’m speechless for that… everything just mess up like what it suppose to, but it just intervensi right?? Self-consoling… haha ^^

Anyway, there is something I wanna talk about, huh… the teacher, damn pro…

Ok, I can’t talk much about that, or else I’ll end up apologizing on the stage on Monday… so I prefer to be mute here… haha ^^ internet seems to be no longer safe, cause “aherm” is spying… especially the web you start with “F” and end with “K”, ok, I’m talking about facebook, lol ^^ luck that I don’t have one… haha ^^

But if you are reading this, I’m sure you know I’m not an over-rude blog writer…. Huh?? I’m just crap here ^^ trust me, I am… lol ^^

Although it had been a long time. But I feel like saying.

Did you study about pendidikan moral, form 5, unit 1?? Yah~~ nilai kepercayaan kepada Tuhan, talking something about balasan.

Why I’m talking about this?? Read your own 14 january 2010 post, this is what exactly what I told you, and you don’t even give a fuck about it. Now you are talking about the thing that I told you, pissing there. Come on, remember?? You never give a damn care about it those days. What’s wrong with you??

Of cause it is your right, it is your blog, you can disagree with me and agree with yourself although it is just totally the same thing. Know what’s it feels like?? Lol ^^

I am bitch!! So what?? Hate be babies.

If you don’t want people to treat you like that, never ever treat other like that. Fool.

p/s: i don't care guy or lady you are talking about, it is the same thing for me. ^^

Hello ^^ I’m here, yeah~ because today is Friday… the second week is gone, and my school are quite busy these days, especially those who are involve in club… this year’s activities seems like started too early… hoho ^^ we have to start our duty next week…

Anyway I got many things to mention here, hummm… firstly, many peoples’ birthday lies on these few days… if I’m not mistaken, today is Mr. tk leong birthday huh?? Seriously, he is the best biology teacher that I have ever meet… I believe many of them thinks so^^ next, will be yoong woon’s birthday, which is on 17 of January… happy birthday to you!! Although something had happen to, but hope to see you again soon ^^ no doubt, many of them miss you like hell =D don’t forget many of them are supporting you. Third will be Lawrence… awwwwwww… actually I don’t really know about his birthday until he asked me in msn whether I had taken my undang test… lol ^^ dear little Lawrence, stay cute, yeah~~ I believe you know that you are cute, right?? Oh-ya… try not to be gay with hezron huh?? Nah~~ just joking, you have the right to fall in love with everyone =.=

The next thing is about PRS. Something happen last week, and really thanks for those who offer me helps… eujin and yang sheng from science and math, they offer me with secretary… rasuah!! Hoho ^^ no la… they just feel pity for me… they are my really best friend, although Jin always bully, and I likes bully him =.= sheng always provide information about what pn goh ask us to do, this and that.

And AJKs, I really want to thank them… they helped me damn lot… wai peng, the vice president, who tend to be the best guy, let me do all the bad things… hoho ^^ but he’s always on my side and console me with his “internally-support” without any obvious effort =p. my secretary, wai yew, she really did everything in the world for me… she remind me about things that I don’t know and some more bring the whole dump file back home just to look at it and wrote down what we have to do… awwww. I really appreciate it. jia yong, who always be the first to do everything i told them to do. be first to answer my question, and pass up the photo. ^^ And also cheuk yee, who accompany wai yew to do all those stuff and remind me about others discipline problem… zu yi, the pities, mumbled by teachers but done her job well ^^

Last but not least, victor =D. need no to mention, you know what you did. I’m really touched when you tell me “it’s ok, if you still have any problem, please tell me, we will solve it together, k?” and the way you use your finger to make yourself smile, and tell me to “smile~” when I cry.

And during the meeting, when I say “I’m the president for our club 09/10” I never expect the junior clap and cheer so loud for me. I don’t care they clap because I am the president or because I am soo po xuan, who will be the president for this year, but they gave me their fully support. They give me the reason to stay ^^

Ok, enough for today… it’s long huh?? You are still reading?? You are my no 1 fans… lol ^^

Nothing much, just wanna say that: Jin’s blog is alive ^^ wee!!

I love the way he says, “Those teachers and headmistress talk and talk and talk, as usual we talk and talk and talk too. But we still lose to them, we talk finish already they still haven.” really laugh my ass out… lol ^^

Just took photo for the moral project… shit thing… under the hot sun, my sis and I pretend to plant some grass, cut some leaf and keep on asking mum to be “fai tit lah”… but I guess it is better that jin, who ask how to be his “brother” posting here and there… clap for sheng, who took the photo non of it saw how’s face… great job =.=

I’m wondering why she have to be so serious about the project, huh?? Can’t just be like victor’s class, done, passes up then here you go the full mark?? Moral man… nilai kasih sayang terhadap anak murid you…

Ok then, that’s all for today… got to go now… I wanna sleep ^^

new year

Although it might be bit late, I mean it’s very late, but I wanna talk something about the new year, 01.01.10 ^^

Actually I don’t really talk much about it because I don’t know how should I write it in words… lol ^^ but since I read siew thong’s blog, I know what should I write about now… haha ^^ tell you, every thing is just the same except for the place we went… she say that she and her hubby with friends went to pavilion, the watched the vampire assistance and they had burger for lunch =.=

Haha ^^ actually this is what happen to me… we went to mid valley at… huh… I forget the time, I think I went there at 11.30am if I’m not mistaken. He went there earlier to buy the ticket, and so we had great seat, which is the 5^th row… it is consider as good already lar, kay… imagine you did not book the ticket but still make it to watch the movie on new year ^^

Anyway, my comment in the movie… sorry to say, but it is same as siew thong too =.= it is different from the book… lol ^^ but not really bad la… just the movie had been twist damn lot and it is different other than the character’s name…

I really enjoy the New Year =D and… uh… ya… you know… haha ^^ lol… don’t know what to say already… just thanks huh ^^

Hey peeps!! The first thing I wanna say here is… I miss holiday… lol ^^ as you know, the intervensi examination is just around the corner, which is a really sucks thing for all of us. Good, my whole year is gone for exam if you had listen to what miss lee told us. Exam will on in January, March, April, May and bla bla bla… which means almost every month.

So smart, since it is SPM year for us, I know I know, you all scare that we don’t study… but if you do like this, how should we run out lesson?? Funny man…

By the way, I LOVE our new principle so much, she change our school like hell, I feel sorry for teachers…

Oh-ya, I forgot to say, for this year, Hui xin will sit beside me in the class… hohoho ^^ and another good news, Jin and sheng couple sit behind of us… I believe the whole class will just F-ed-up with xin screaming sound, Jin sheng couple argument sound and my mumbling sound… congratulation for 5A12 ^^

Wish me luck, I need that ^^

School had reopen and all of us are quite busy these days… hate school… it is just so shit... lol ^^

Anyway, today went to Mr. muru’s English class, and he had taught us creative essays like usual. By the way, today’s topic is LOVE, and sorry to say, I cannot post it here, cause Mr. muru say people will fall in love with me if I do so… haha ^^

Other than that, he said that couple shan’t call each other as “honey” cause if you keep honey for long period, it’ll turn in to sour, which is vinegar… so make it natural and call each other “nectar” which will stay sweet forever… =.=’’ ok, I know it’s just so sweat…

Tomorrow is Friday, and it had been one week since we’re back to school… time flies huh?? Tomorrow I’m free!! Yeah! School will finish at 12.40pm and I can go home to sleep… haha ^^ wish me luck…

Since I leave my blog for such a long period, I think I missed something about new year, I got so many things to talk about… nah~~ forget about it, I’ll keep it for myself… ngeh ngeh ngeh ^^

i love myself

I have both hands, so I can hug myself tight

If I can have two lips, I swear I’ll kiss myself

I’m glad I’m who I am, and I love myself more than everyone else

You might think that I’m over complacent, but I don’t care, I deserve to =p

I love how I live

I love how I act

I love how I think

I love to be who I am

I’m not perfect, but I’m good enough for myself to do so

I love the others too,

But not more than how much I love myself

Maybe I had over-love myself

But I think love is something cannot be resist

mini drama

Just watched a mini drama with sis… the story goes like this:

Two youngsters playing football near the hill, then one go to pick up the balls. Suddenly the other one heard him screaming, of cause he went to look for him… like what the others drama did, they fall down the slope and faint…

When they awoke, they found that they are in a house, and then a beautiful woman came in and explain that she found them, this and that… that woman say that her house has no phone and their bones are broken, so she suggest them to stay…

On the other hand, the youngster’s friends are worry and look for them… of cause they found nothing except the ball, or else the drama will just come to the end…

By the way, the house the two youngster live at is weird, the woman told them there are just the only three of them who live in the house, but one of the youngster did saw another girl appear in the house…

He starts to worry and keep on asking the women to ensure that they are the only three…

The other youngster fall in love with the woman, and here you’ll think it’s a love story…
Lol ^^ I start to regret writhing about this, cause it still have a long way to go… ok, I’ll make it short…

Anyway, the next day, the youngster who feels weird about the house spot a room that had been lock for so long… he went in and the wall of the room is full with their poster and news and picture… (They are actually singer)

He got shock, went to his friend, told him and they decided to run away… but half way, one of them fall down and hurt his feet… yea~~ I know it is dramatic, so what?? It is a drama wad…

Bla bla bla, and the woman found them, knock them and bring them back to the house again… she tied them at the bad and told them she love them so she can’t let them go and bla bla bla… finally here come the other woman who suppose to live in the house like what the youngster guess about… so it is not horror movie??

The just-appeared-woman frees them and asks them to run for their life… before they run, the youngster pass her his ring, and promise to come back to save her… they run run run then they reach the police station… they report to the police about there’s a girl who’s in trouble in the house at the very end of the hill… but the police said that it was an empty house…

They went back the house with the police but the house really seems like being abandon for long time. Dust and spider web are all over the house, and they saw a photo, the photo of the two owner of the house, and guess what?? The ring is on the woman’s finger!!!!!!!

The end

So, what’s your opinion?? Is this consider a horror movie?? Lol ^^ ok, I crap a lot today… before I forget, about one more hour to 2010!! Happy new year my friend, know that I love you all ^^

Haha^^ funny!! He is someone cry for you when you’re in hospital… ooi!! Wake up lor… you think everyone in the world cry for you izzit?? I don’t even care if you’re dead… but now?? You are now scolding him as beast in your holy blog…

As what his friend says… who is the real beast here??

Ok, actually what I say is nothing to do with people around me… just sometimes huh?? People don’t know what they are talking about… forget who really care for them, and scolding like mad cow… lol ^^ this is what human being act like…

try something new

Holiday is bored, so I decided to try something new =p guess what?? I decided to watch horror movie by myself in my room, using earphone, and turn off the light… lol ^^

And I fail, cause I scream too loud and mummy get angry and come to stop me… so I have no choice but to turn on the light so that I’m not that scare… but I really wish I could watch it without any light… more excited, huh??

Anyway, I think you guys should try that… it’s fun… haha ^^ although maybe you’ll scream your lung out… but who cares?? I did enjoy it… lol ^^

Ok then, I must continue to watch it now… wish me luck… of cause with the light on… mummy not allowed me to off the light anymore… lol ^^

christmas prom

yeah~~ the Christmas prom is over, and we did enjoy a lot... the food is nice, so no need to be worry, xin ^^

anyway, xin really did a very great job... thanks huh ^^

as usual, most of the picture are not with me... too bad...
really thanks, you bring me the best surprise...

flash back 2009

Hey babes… it had been a long time since my post got a title…

By the way, I’ve been arranging my pendrive just now… and I check my photo one by one… form 4 had just past… so fast, I don’t even have chance to feel it with heart…

Looking at those pictures, I start to recall, one of the best time I have is the Sabah trip… I cannot say that I miss them… but don’t you think that it’s awesome, more then 1000 people from different school, different states, different background come together at tabung haji kota kinabalu, sabah?? We spend 4 wonderful days together… we eat together, sleep together... before this, we really don’t know each other at all… but we managed to live together for the 4 days…

Although I don’t really remember their name, but they really leave a good memory, and it will be part of my joyful moment in life…

Actually I really think that I’m lucky enough to get the opportunity to go to Sabah by myself… I believe not many of us have the chance to take an airplane to someway by only ourselves… seriously no one that I know or I seen before… am I sscared? To be honest, that time, I’m kinda scare…

I tried to communicate to the other students, teachers… and surprisingly, it is not a really difficult thing… of cause we share the same language in Malaysia… so it’s ok for me…

I’ll tried not to forget what we did, what we laugh at, what we talk about ^^

And besides that, people really change a lot… your best friend during January, the one who care you the most, izzit still the one by your side now??

Life is unpredictable huh?? Scary~~

I remember once I read Lawrence’s blog, long time ago, he describe how life is unpredictable, how fragile is human’s relationship… I cannot say that I’m agree with him, but by the way he describe about it… you’ll realize “this is life”…

Anyway, 2009 will end in 6 days, and I think I did pretty well this whole year, I enjoy my life ^^ I never wasted any of them…